...I desperately regret it!? I found out that my husband cheated on me while i was pregnant with our first child. It killed me to believe he had done that. He is truly sorry and i can tell. I couldn't cope with the pain and the betrayal. We are going trough christian counseling, but the torturing thoughts couldn't leave me at peace. I was becoming bitter, mad and depressed.
Well, it happened. i went out for a run, ran into an old friend. We met for dinner to catch up on our stuff. Well, it let to it. I cheated on my husband. I regretted instantly even before, but i had gone too far. I was dumb and i wasn't strong enough to end not go on. I' regret it deeply. I've betrayed my savior, my God. I've doubted him by doing this in that he was going to heal my heart.
I don't need compassion, i don't need justification. Revenge is just as sick as his act. Ive wronged God. I feel even worst now.
I need genuine advise from christians, from Pastors. What do i do,now? Should i tell my husband. I have a written contract at my work that if i was to commit adultery im to lose my job. Should i tell my Pastors who are also my boss. My church leader, do i need to tell her. I cant let her pity me for what my husband did, and think im strong for going on with this burden, when i, now, have done the same. I cant live a lie. What do i do? How do i know God will forgive me? How do i truly show God am sorry? What must i do? I'm sorry, but am i supposed to to come out and tell my husband, church leader and Pastors what I've done? Can God work on my life by dealing it only with him, or must i come out and confess? I truly want to be right with God this time. it hurts me that I've failed God.
Please advise me
Well, it happened. i went out for a run, ran into an old friend. We met for dinner to catch up on our stuff. Well, it let to it. I cheated on my husband. I regretted instantly even before, but i had gone too far. I was dumb and i wasn't strong enough to end not go on. I' regret it deeply. I've betrayed my savior, my God. I've doubted him by doing this in that he was going to heal my heart.
I don't need compassion, i don't need justification. Revenge is just as sick as his act. Ive wronged God. I feel even worst now.
I need genuine advise from christians, from Pastors. What do i do,now? Should i tell my husband. I have a written contract at my work that if i was to commit adultery im to lose my job. Should i tell my Pastors who are also my boss. My church leader, do i need to tell her. I cant let her pity me for what my husband did, and think im strong for going on with this burden, when i, now, have done the same. I cant live a lie. What do i do? How do i know God will forgive me? How do i truly show God am sorry? What must i do? I'm sorry, but am i supposed to to come out and tell my husband, church leader and Pastors what I've done? Can God work on my life by dealing it only with him, or must i come out and confess? I truly want to be right with God this time. it hurts me that I've failed God.
Please advise me