one morning i didnt wake up on time and my parents were very angry. my father pulled me out of my bed and yelled and screamed, threatened to do harmful things to me, pushed me around, and yelled some more. i didnt wake up in time, my mother came up to my room and told me to wake up countless of times, yet this anger by my dad is kind of crossing the line. so i told my school this and they got all this agency invovled and now my parents are so stressed. they seem as if they didnt love me anymore, my mother kind of did, but most of the time she ignored me. my father wouldnt even look at me. everything has quieted down in the house and i know i've caused it. dont tell me that telling the school what happened was the right thing, becuase it wasnt. i wish i kept quiet. then my father would appolagize in a few days and everything would go back to normal, my feeling never really healed but at least they would love me like their child. now they think i betrayed them and they dont want to be near me. my mother is the only one that communicates with me. she still wakes me up and makes food for me but now she's all angry at me and puts so much pressure and guilt on me i dont feel like living anymore. my parents dont even love me anymore, the only solution i see is suicide. nothing is going to get better, how could it, i'm in such a big hole.
it wasnt the right thing to do
what if i loose my parents, the little of them i have left??
this isnt something like "oh good, now he wont abuse me any more" its more like "oh no now i'm going to loose my dad and my mom because i just told them about this incident"
i dont take loosing parents lightly
its not something like "oh i lost them"
it wasnt the right thing to do
what if i loose my parents, the little of them i have left??
this isnt something like "oh good, now he wont abuse me any more" its more like "oh no now i'm going to loose my dad and my mom because i just told them about this incident"
i dont take loosing parents lightly
its not something like "oh i lost them"