Since I was younger I have had an emotional attachment to women. Where I imagine scenarios in my head of women being my mum, or sister etc and caring/ nurturing for me. I HAVE never had any sexual thoughts about women in my life, but one day this year i started worrying if i was a lesbian or not. I started 'testing' myself by imagining kissing and being in a relationship with other women, and even kissing my mirror pretending it was a women, how stupid!I don't fantasize and enjoy fantasies about having sex etc with other women like other people on yahoo have said they do. But 5 months after I started worrying i still can't clearly imagine being a lesbian and enjoying it. Okay i have an attatchment to women, but its never on the same level as being in a sexual relationship with them. It usually them caring for me, or being my sister/ mum etc. I look at other girls, but what teen doesn't? I always see my sister, cousins, friends etc look at other girls, doesn't mean i feel turned on. But i have confused myself so much, like every time i see a girl, i'm like omg did i feel turned on? or stupid thoughts like that. even though i know the feelings aren't genuine.
Before this day I used to always imagine being in a relationship with a guy, i even had a crush on my male teacher for over a year. i used to fantasize being in a relationship with him, having a family etc, i used to imagine this also with male actors. Now i have repressed these thoughts, i feel so negative thinking about guys because i have just confused myself. Do you think it is the stress and worry from all this that has made me feel differently towards guys? Because just a few months ago i was always fantasizing about being in a relationship with guys, and sometimes masturbated thinking of sex with guys. as well as the though of sex turned me on.
My last emotional attachment involved a male teacher at my school, as well as some female teachers. just imaging them caring for me, and for some reason my baby. So weird i know, but i just seem to have this strongemotional attachment to people. And a emotional/caring/ admiring attachment to women.
As i said before this attachment is always on a different level, where they are caring for me. It is never sexual unless i am testing myself. I just CANT clearly imagine myself being a lesbian, it doesn't feel right, and as i said before i used to always imagine being in a relationship with guys, ok i didn't get turned on by them in public or go omg there so hot like other girls, but i used to always fantasize and had a crush on my male teacher.
I'm 18 and have anxiety and a bit of OCD.
Before this day I used to always imagine being in a relationship with a guy, i even had a crush on my male teacher for over a year. i used to fantasize being in a relationship with him, having a family etc, i used to imagine this also with male actors. Now i have repressed these thoughts, i feel so negative thinking about guys because i have just confused myself. Do you think it is the stress and worry from all this that has made me feel differently towards guys? Because just a few months ago i was always fantasizing about being in a relationship with guys, and sometimes masturbated thinking of sex with guys. as well as the though of sex turned me on.
My last emotional attachment involved a male teacher at my school, as well as some female teachers. just imaging them caring for me, and for some reason my baby. So weird i know, but i just seem to have this strongemotional attachment to people. And a emotional/caring/ admiring attachment to women.
As i said before this attachment is always on a different level, where they are caring for me. It is never sexual unless i am testing myself. I just CANT clearly imagine myself being a lesbian, it doesn't feel right, and as i said before i used to always imagine being in a relationship with guys, ok i didn't get turned on by them in public or go omg there so hot like other girls, but i used to always fantasize and had a crush on my male teacher.
I'm 18 and have anxiety and a bit of OCD.