CamCameronFIRED
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well this stand up comedian Greg Giraldo died a year ago or so and i still feel sad but i do not know why.
I have been following his career for ever but never go the chance to see him live.
I do how ever feel this connection with the guy and feel that we have the same demons. this did not happen until i read an article in Psychology Today. to sum it up it said .
I'm a total fuckup, honestly. The reality is I'm not this person with this driving "get it done" attitude. I'm a complete fuckup and I've ****** up a lot of things in my life. I'm constantly tortured by a sense of failure. I feel like quitting all the time. I feel like hiding in drugs or alcohol. I feel like I've failed in terms of what my potential is. I don't think I've achieved my potential because I haven't worked that hard and I haven't found the right angles. The reality is, I'm not a "get knocked down and just pull myself back up by my bootstraps and come back harder" kind of guy.
The desire to feel like you're not a loser drives me. I don't know if that's the healthiest thing—to be motivated by a fear of hating yourself. But it definitely helps. In a perfect world I would overcome the sense that I suck constantly.
Emotionally I dwell on things forever. I'm an obsessive thinker. I obsess on things I've done wrong. Even worse than mistakes, I'll dwell on what I'm not doing at the moment and what my limitations are.
I feel the same way this guy did and if he made it so can I . Now that he is dead i feel kinda lost but know i have to keep going and pick up self up and keep trying.
i only feel sad when i see the tributes but other then that i am fine. I have never cried over any one death b4 so i do not know what wrong with me?
I use look up to and can feel some of the same **** that I go through. now that he is gone i have to find some to look up to get support.
I have been following his career for ever but never go the chance to see him live.
I do how ever feel this connection with the guy and feel that we have the same demons. this did not happen until i read an article in Psychology Today. to sum it up it said .
I'm a total fuckup, honestly. The reality is I'm not this person with this driving "get it done" attitude. I'm a complete fuckup and I've ****** up a lot of things in my life. I'm constantly tortured by a sense of failure. I feel like quitting all the time. I feel like hiding in drugs or alcohol. I feel like I've failed in terms of what my potential is. I don't think I've achieved my potential because I haven't worked that hard and I haven't found the right angles. The reality is, I'm not a "get knocked down and just pull myself back up by my bootstraps and come back harder" kind of guy.
The desire to feel like you're not a loser drives me. I don't know if that's the healthiest thing—to be motivated by a fear of hating yourself. But it definitely helps. In a perfect world I would overcome the sense that I suck constantly.
Emotionally I dwell on things forever. I'm an obsessive thinker. I obsess on things I've done wrong. Even worse than mistakes, I'll dwell on what I'm not doing at the moment and what my limitations are.
I feel the same way this guy did and if he made it so can I . Now that he is dead i feel kinda lost but know i have to keep going and pick up self up and keep trying.
i only feel sad when i see the tributes but other then that i am fine. I have never cried over any one death b4 so i do not know what wrong with me?
I use look up to and can feel some of the same **** that I go through. now that he is gone i have to find some to look up to get support.