Well my girlfriend and I have been dating for 6months, and as much as I hate saying we are in the 6month period....well we are.
We are very different people, and I know we all are, but before my girlfriend and I met we where alone for a year tops thinking to ourselves we where going to be alone...well "forever". Well I guess we have adjusted to how great we are for each other and kinda brought it to a reality where we are just normal to each other instead of these missing puzzle pieces that needed to be together.
We just had an argument about basically nothing, but it escalated into a drastic situation where both of us where quite to each other for the whole day (while at school and in class together) it ended up to us going to her house in anger and sadness then walking out on each other, but before I left I wrote her a note telling her I was sorry and I love her, and the whole reason why I don't try in school (the main reason why we argued) is because I love her, and I rather just give love and be in love then to excel in school for materialistic things (money big house nice cars). I mean to be honest I could live in a old beat down beach shed if it meant that all we could do is love each other and be happy together.
I understood where she got mad at me from though. She said "I just want you to have a life plan, because our relationship won't work if you are still struggling at community college while I'm moving on" I agreed and said I will try my hardest to excel in school and move up the ladder with you. (we both want to be art therapist). After I left my note for her, she called me a couple hours later, and she said "I just wanted to say I love you, and you are a great person....the best I've ever met" I told her that it's hard to beileve I'm a great person when I dont fit into society (exceling in school and making "money", I'm an artist I think like one, I have sensitive emotions like one, and I love to give love, I can never hate, people just take tere hate on me and I accept it as if im a trash can). I told her I fear losing her because I know there are people out there who are better at school and are kind like me, and she told me she wants to be with me right now, and she loves me.
So after we had that talk we couldn't get off the phone with each other, we just stayed silent on the phone for alittle, and I said I have nothing to say except I love you, and it's bot a normal I love you it's an I love you in the greatest form of love can be. She told me I love you in the greatest form of love also. We agreed to not call or talk to each other intill V-day, and she said we are only aloud to text each other once a day saying I love you or I miss you, and we can't reply to it we just have to read it, and we can only say it when we truly feel that way.
The thing is I havnt felt that way yet, I know I love her it's just that 3 days is t that long, we are usually together everyday, I practically live with her, and me knowing that I'm going to see her soon I just don't feel the strong emotions I felt when we talked after the arguement.
I want to be with her we know we have something special together we just don't know what (or at least I don't). I told her that if we did break up I would just go back to normal and be alone and not care about relationships again, she said she would do the same thing and just be at home crying. We don't want to break up, but there is something with us missing I don't know what it is, and I don't want to lose her, if there is someone better for me out there then so be it, but I just don't want to take the chance, and I know that both of us can work towards loving each other to the fullest potential. We believe in Finding and loving yourself and once you can do that you can love everything, we just have not got to the point of loving ourselves yet, but I think we are getting close....I can feel it.....I think....I'm just unsure.
We are very different people, and I know we all are, but before my girlfriend and I met we where alone for a year tops thinking to ourselves we where going to be alone...well "forever". Well I guess we have adjusted to how great we are for each other and kinda brought it to a reality where we are just normal to each other instead of these missing puzzle pieces that needed to be together.
We just had an argument about basically nothing, but it escalated into a drastic situation where both of us where quite to each other for the whole day (while at school and in class together) it ended up to us going to her house in anger and sadness then walking out on each other, but before I left I wrote her a note telling her I was sorry and I love her, and the whole reason why I don't try in school (the main reason why we argued) is because I love her, and I rather just give love and be in love then to excel in school for materialistic things (money big house nice cars). I mean to be honest I could live in a old beat down beach shed if it meant that all we could do is love each other and be happy together.
I understood where she got mad at me from though. She said "I just want you to have a life plan, because our relationship won't work if you are still struggling at community college while I'm moving on" I agreed and said I will try my hardest to excel in school and move up the ladder with you. (we both want to be art therapist). After I left my note for her, she called me a couple hours later, and she said "I just wanted to say I love you, and you are a great person....the best I've ever met" I told her that it's hard to beileve I'm a great person when I dont fit into society (exceling in school and making "money", I'm an artist I think like one, I have sensitive emotions like one, and I love to give love, I can never hate, people just take tere hate on me and I accept it as if im a trash can). I told her I fear losing her because I know there are people out there who are better at school and are kind like me, and she told me she wants to be with me right now, and she loves me.
So after we had that talk we couldn't get off the phone with each other, we just stayed silent on the phone for alittle, and I said I have nothing to say except I love you, and it's bot a normal I love you it's an I love you in the greatest form of love can be. She told me I love you in the greatest form of love also. We agreed to not call or talk to each other intill V-day, and she said we are only aloud to text each other once a day saying I love you or I miss you, and we can't reply to it we just have to read it, and we can only say it when we truly feel that way.
The thing is I havnt felt that way yet, I know I love her it's just that 3 days is t that long, we are usually together everyday, I practically live with her, and me knowing that I'm going to see her soon I just don't feel the strong emotions I felt when we talked after the arguement.
I want to be with her we know we have something special together we just don't know what (or at least I don't). I told her that if we did break up I would just go back to normal and be alone and not care about relationships again, she said she would do the same thing and just be at home crying. We don't want to break up, but there is something with us missing I don't know what it is, and I don't want to lose her, if there is someone better for me out there then so be it, but I just don't want to take the chance, and I know that both of us can work towards loving each other to the fullest potential. We believe in Finding and loving yourself and once you can do that you can love everything, we just have not got to the point of loving ourselves yet, but I think we are getting close....I can feel it.....I think....I'm just unsure.