:-( Stop smoking. If you're hiding it from a boyfriend, then just stop. I had a girlfriend who I dated for years who smoked a couple times and hid it from me. She couldn't hide it though-- I knew, and it hurt my feelings so bad. There's nothing positive that comes out of smoking. It's an expensive and a body destroying habit. Try to quit... you really don't need to smoke. I'm in California, San Diego, and all my guy friends here think that a smoking girl is gross anyway. And no-- I'm not some nerdy freak.. haha. ;-) We say that a girl that smokes, pokes. Maybe that's you?