Side note - The truth is I always wanted to be loved but I was ignore time after time.The thing is I wasn't wrong because I always thought positive, I always had patience to understand but if someone is made to lose then what can Allah do in it?
It is not his fault either because there was no one with me ever.But now I have changed, I want nothing anymore!I don't want to wish either because if everything is meant to end up so why to even expect it in first place?!I am fed up already and I don't want anything ever now!In spite of so much broken inside I am still fighting and I end up making myself happy at the end of day but for how long?Who knows if this feeling might kill me someday and I won't be around anymore.But before I die with this emptiness inside I want to devote myself to my Lord and do everything to make him and his servants happy at the least.This is my choice!
to my dear dairy..,,,,
@Arif - LOL!Umm yes why not, some color yahoo can only bring some color to my page.LOL!

It is not his fault either because there was no one with me ever.But now I have changed, I want nothing anymore!I don't want to wish either because if everything is meant to end up so why to even expect it in first place?!I am fed up already and I don't want anything ever now!In spite of so much broken inside I am still fighting and I end up making myself happy at the end of day but for how long?Who knows if this feeling might kill me someday and I won't be around anymore.But before I die with this emptiness inside I want to devote myself to my Lord and do everything to make him and his servants happy at the least.This is my choice!
to my dear dairy..,,,,
@Arif - LOL!Umm yes why not, some color yahoo can only bring some color to my page.LOL!