I feel like even when I go out with people who are supposed to be my friends its like I'm a joke. I feel like they are discreetly making fun of me and think that I am either too stupid or too drunk to notice. But I do notice and it really hurts my feelings. I just go out to have a good time so I don't know what I'm doing wrong to be perceived this way. I recently found out that a couple people said that I was awkward to hold a conversation with or that I could barely hold a conversation. What can I do differently? I'm so hurt.
this is a picture of me:
http://i48.tinypic.com/105y637.jpg
this is a picture of me:
http://i48.tinypic.com/105y637.jpg