I feel like I may have a bit of a marijuana addiction. I've been smoking almost every day since the 8th grade (I'm now done high school... so about 5 years). I stopped for 5 months because I started getting really paranoid. Today I got stoned for the first time in the 5 months and it felt so amazing. When I'm high I just love the way I think. I love the way I see things. I'm so much more creative and happy. Back when I was a heavy user I even had to get stoned every time I had sex because it was the only way I could climax. Why does weed have to be so great? It makes me really lazy and unmotivated and I need a job right now, so I really dont want to get back into the habbit... but I just love it so much. I want to live on a beach and just smoke weed every second of the day and not have to work!