i'm 15 next month so u could say i'm 15,i'm madly in love with this girl,were close,we are both christians by the way,i have known her since i was 7 and she was 10 and i have loved her since i was 10 but as the years have gone by the more and more i got i love with her,she had 1 boyfriend but he was gettin decippled in the church and writing new songs becausee he holds concerts in the church and my church always goes down every month to,he said he couldn't take it and he was stressed out so he said he needed a brake for about 6 months from dating and he wanted to be closer to God. yesterday my bestfriend was easdropping on his mums conversation with her and she told his mum that she couldn't take it anymore that everytime she goes down to her ex boyfriends church and sees him she forces her self to smile and shes in so much pain cause she loves him and seeing him and not dating himm gets her angry because she loves him and everynight she cries herself to sleep and she said she's going to forget about dating him,When my friend told me this I felt so sorry for her becausee I know how she feels,from the age of 10-13 I just loved her but there was no depression in my life but when i turned 14 two months later my friend told me that she was dating her first boyfriend i got so angry with God and my relationship with God went down and no for the past two months I have been crying in Church during the service and have been lifting my hands up to God during the song service and prayer and this week I have been crying and kneeling down in my bedroom and asking God to help me and tell me what to do because I can't live this way anymore,it hurts me so much that I love her and she is so in love with him,there is no hour I don't think about her and no their not sexual thoughts,she said she is going to go to uni for 4 years and in 4 years time she will be in her last year of uni and i will be in my first year so mabye she might see me as a man then.my best friends mum noticed i liked her and so she asked him and he had to be honest with his mother and told her yes and today when i was helping the guys pack up instruments in church i saw my best friends mum talking to the girl i love and heard my name and the weird thing was after they finished their conversation she was extremely nice to me unlike before,she's always nice but this time felt different.i just need someone to give me advice on what to do because i'm in emotional pain