TheOceanRightNow
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- Mar 10, 2011
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I was raised catholic, but I'm sort of scared of the whole concept of god. I keep thinking that he hates me or something. When I think of god I feel like every action I make, thought I have, and thing I say will be judged, and I will be harshly punished for my sins. I want to be able to be catholic, and I want to believe that god exists, but I feel better when I believe that he doesn't. He's sort of portrayed as scary and harsh. How do I get over this fear? Every time I come back from catholic education, I become depressed for days, and start to question myself, because I listen to punk rock and read feminist literature, and feel so comfortable with that. I feel more comfortable with punk than with god. How could something so wrong to god feel so welcoming to me? Am I inherently evil? How can I welcome god into my life without having a fear of doing the wrong thing and upsetting him?