People laugh at me everyday for being quiet. I AM NOT PARANOID. I am right 95% of the time. I am made fun of, ridiculed, and laughed at on a daily basis. I was verbally buliied since the 6ht grade. I am now in the 12th grade. If I had to estimate how many people that have talked about me, made fun of me, ridiculed, and laughed at me, it would be about 70 people and counting. It starts off with one kid picking on me, who passes it on to others, and then I become a target/victim to a growing number of students who are catching on to the bullying trend like it was an epidemic. Even a few of my classmates have joined in the harassment and laughed at me in the past. My parents are no better. They make fun of me, laugh at me, and embarass me most of the time. They would yell at me "Stop mpoing around and crying! Get over yourself!" I've tried to talking to them about how they mistreat me but they don't see no harm in what they're doing. Occasionally, I have suicidal thoughts and last week and started to cut my thighs with a razor blade. I cut myself because I have to go through all of this all by myself. I have no empathy, comfort, or compassion from anyone in mmy life. I cut myself becuase I'm sick and tired of crying almost everyday. I cut myself because I've been severely hated, bullied, harassed, tormented, and abused by everyone I have encountered. I cut myself because I hate myself with a deep passion. Why should I give a damn about myself? I'm a worthless, less than human loser who is beneath everybody. If you don't think, so then why does everybody including my parents treat me like shit? I'm fucking sick and tired of people laughing at me for being myself (an introvert). For once, I would like to make fun and laugh at somebody who is like me. Is there anyone, right now, being laughed at everyday constantly like me? Or used to be? I feel so alone and need someone to talk to.