I am a christian goth in an area that is fairly close minded... I am usually very well accepted amongst most people, because of my very open minded and bubbly personality.
Though, my problem is when I walk into a church or even a christian book store, I'm suddenly hit with stares and judgmental and disapproving looks. People look at my clothes, my jewlry, and my make-up and suddenly think...well...the usual judgement of religious and moral values...
Ofcourse, I keep my sunny disposition and offer a friendly smile, but honestly it gets old. From what my mother has always told me and from what I've come to learn over the years is that you should feel at home, and comfortable in God's house. I mean, why shouldn't you feel comfortably in your father's house? Comfortable to praise how you want to praise in whatever you want to praise in.
I've come across this too many times. I'd visit a church and many would show me a false front lovingly welcoming me, then I could feel the stares and hear the whispers amongst them about my appearance. Many things about converting me, or why I'm even there. Then many would start comparing me to their church's "Angel". Why can't I dress more like her? Why can't I act more like her? Why can't I just be more like her?
Most times (being a more small town like area) I knew their little "angel" outside of church and knew they didn't act very christ-like at all. (Meaning this girl was usually very rude, and rather loose with her moral values....I'm not saying this to be over dramatic...I really mean it...I heard them talking about their escapades. Either in the college or high school halls.) At these times I stare at these people, nod it off, look around myself and realize....I don't belong.
After a while of going through the same game over and over...I just stopped trying. Now I just talk about God with my mother who spends most of her spare time reading about God, and studying his word, and the works done about God. Here lately that has been my church. Just my mother and me, every once in a while one of my friends, my grandmother, or my uncle join in on our talks and debates about God and his love and the life of Jesus.
I've often read and heard that being part of a church is a very important part of being a christian. Though considering my troubles with finding a church in my area that will actually accepts me (instead of playing the "Lets convert the Goth" game) Does this make me a bad christian for not joining a Church?
it is a small southern town out in the country which i am trying to move out soon. dont ever move into one of these places its not fun.
it is a small southern town out in the country which i am trying to move out soon. dont ever move into one of these places its not fun.
it is a small southern town out in the country which i am trying to move out soon. dont ever move into one of these places its not fun.
its a small southern country town
Though, my problem is when I walk into a church or even a christian book store, I'm suddenly hit with stares and judgmental and disapproving looks. People look at my clothes, my jewlry, and my make-up and suddenly think...well...the usual judgement of religious and moral values...
Ofcourse, I keep my sunny disposition and offer a friendly smile, but honestly it gets old. From what my mother has always told me and from what I've come to learn over the years is that you should feel at home, and comfortable in God's house. I mean, why shouldn't you feel comfortably in your father's house? Comfortable to praise how you want to praise in whatever you want to praise in.
I've come across this too many times. I'd visit a church and many would show me a false front lovingly welcoming me, then I could feel the stares and hear the whispers amongst them about my appearance. Many things about converting me, or why I'm even there. Then many would start comparing me to their church's "Angel". Why can't I dress more like her? Why can't I act more like her? Why can't I just be more like her?
Most times (being a more small town like area) I knew their little "angel" outside of church and knew they didn't act very christ-like at all. (Meaning this girl was usually very rude, and rather loose with her moral values....I'm not saying this to be over dramatic...I really mean it...I heard them talking about their escapades. Either in the college or high school halls.) At these times I stare at these people, nod it off, look around myself and realize....I don't belong.
After a while of going through the same game over and over...I just stopped trying. Now I just talk about God with my mother who spends most of her spare time reading about God, and studying his word, and the works done about God. Here lately that has been my church. Just my mother and me, every once in a while one of my friends, my grandmother, or my uncle join in on our talks and debates about God and his love and the life of Jesus.
I've often read and heard that being part of a church is a very important part of being a christian. Though considering my troubles with finding a church in my area that will actually accepts me (instead of playing the "Lets convert the Goth" game) Does this make me a bad christian for not joining a Church?
it is a small southern town out in the country which i am trying to move out soon. dont ever move into one of these places its not fun.
it is a small southern town out in the country which i am trying to move out soon. dont ever move into one of these places its not fun.
it is a small southern town out in the country which i am trying to move out soon. dont ever move into one of these places its not fun.
its a small southern country town