Hi, i am slowly losing my mind. Each day....i go further in. I know what depression is. I know it all too well. But this time, it seems to be different. This time i dont speak about anything. I cant stand speaking to people about my past or current problems. I find it pointless because i know i can never tell the full extent of it all. My bf doesn't have a clue how depressed i am. Noone does lol. I used to talk about my problems too much, but that never helped, it only ended up in me feeling 3000 times worse because i was called an attention seeker, yet i really was not out to cause attention to myself. Life sucks. It is so crap! I have scars all over me. Recent scars on my arm that wont go away, they wont even fade, they dont meet up at the sides. One wont heal it's just like a permanent cut on my arm. So i see myself saying what is the point in not cutting anymore? i already have loads of scars that arent going anywhere so why stop? I have started drinking again. I dont know what to do. Councelling is so bloody pointless. They talk through their asses. They havent a bloody clue what they are on about. Before you have a go at me for saying that i will give you an example as to why i'm saying this. First councellor, all she done was speak about her problems, and her past. If i said i felt like crap, she would reply saying no you dont. :S and the councellor i just finished sessions with the other day because they werent helping me. I went to her for CBT for OCD and all she done was like check my notebook and leaflets etc incase there was "private stuff trapped in between" the pages. Cause that is her OCD. Like wtf? Now she is sending me to a psychotherapist or something. Ew. fed up!!!! 
No i am not an emo lol!!!! I'm just your average person with fcuked up problems
No i am not an emo lol!!!! I'm just your average person with fcuked up problems