to keep it plain and simple. i was born and raised in the nuclear family (or so it seems like.) my whole life up until recently i have been attracted to just girls. Ive had girlfriends, booty calls, one night stands and anything a half way decent looking kid does at my age. When i was 18, stoned in my bed, it crossed my mindi might be gay. Ideas were floating around but i felt no attraction towards men. At the same time i started to get the feeling my dad might be gay. He didnt talk much but when he did it seemed feminine and when he was around his friends he seemed fake. This really started to bother me and still does, not the fact i thought he was gay but that he could be living a lie. Now im nineteen and a freshman in college. I walked into a clothing store and got this gut wrenching feeling when i was helped by the guy who worked at the store (he was gay). I got the same feeling when i came back a few days later and the same guy was there. I got a similar feeling the other night when I saw a very good looking, big guy. So, Ive ruled out i am completely straight even though I love the thought of having sex with women and would have sex with a women no problem. Now im not sure if i am bi or gay. Why did it take me 18 years to get butterflies around a guy?
gay? bi? trying to figure out my sexuality....?
I believe love is love. If you fall in love with a girl then cool .. with a guy.. then also cool. I see no reason for stereotypes or labels. But I'm confused when you say "gut wrenching".. when I get a feeling like that i associate it with puke and being very unattracted to someone. Being attracted to a gay guy is kinda like being attracted to a girl don't you think?? With the femininity and all. Maybe it took 18 years because you hadn't met the right guy 