I was trying to fit in with the in crowd, and made one mistake i drank until i was drunk, Then the person i trusted well lots just say took advantage of me. I woke up the next morning hurtin with a towle coverd in blood around my arm i freaked Flashes from the night before blew threw my mind pieces i couldnt put together fifteen hours is missing from my life, all because i drunk. I pretend it didnt happen and then i look at my wrist and it's there back in my mind. My scars tell me somethin happend what i don't know. This one mistake has affected my life to the point i dont know who to trust so i hide I dont talk to know one call no one go no where and that's not me Before all this i was the girl who couldnt stop laughing. Every friday i wasnt home if i was i wasnt alone. I use to dress to impress and know i am always thinkin negative thinkin the worst I went from a smile every-day to a frawn when a boy comes close to me i run i scream always scared See when this first happend i started cutting myself if i coulndt sleep so i wouldnt think no more then i ran into a friend from the past i havent seen in a long time and i read a poem he wrote and it made me think so i stopped cutting myself but all the negative thought are still in my head i dont wont dress to impress i dont wont to nothin really and i wont to trust people so bad i wont to find a guy that really likes me for me and not what i got but i dont know how any more i cant make no friends cuz i am so anger not depressed i dont wont to feel hate no more i wont someone who loves me for me so if you read this please dont skip it and give me some advice