I almost had sex, it felt good but i felt bad.?

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Last night, I almost had sex. I went over to his house, we played video games for an hour, the entire time we was cuddly with me. Then I don't know what I was thinking, but he wanted to cuddle more and we were in bed, and then he crossed boundries I made clear that he shouldn't cross. I don't know why I didn't say anytin or tell him to get off of me (I'm inexperienced) he started kissing me, my neck, then he started groping me, his hands were trying to get down into my underwear and then it did. I feel so stupid..I didn't let him stop, it felt really good. But I'm not that kind of girl, to go that fast I've only known him for a month. He got hard and asked if I wanted to have sex, I said 'no' he asked if this was my first time and I said yes, then he said 'i like you. do you like me?' I didn't reply because I was so mad at myself inside, he could tell something was wrong and he stopped. He kept askig 'do you like me? you're mine'

I called him later that night told him I wasn't okay with what happened.

Please help, I think I'm going to avoid him. I don't want a relationship to start off like this... i'm 18, but it's not how I roll. I feel like a slut.

Is it normal? that it felt good and that I wanted it but subconsciously didn't want it not in that aspect lol!
 
I know EXACTLY how you feel! That has happened to me and my boyfriend of 2 years! We are saving ourselves for marriage, but that doesn't mean sexual tension stops existing!

It's normal for you to want to continue down that road once you start on it... Sex (normally) doesn't happen like "hey, want to have sex?" "sure!". It's usually a series of events that eventually lead to the culmination of sex.

Personally, I can say I am very thankful that my boyfriend and I haven't given in. Until you're married, sex really only complicates things unnecessarily. Stay strong and if you need to avoid him to keep that from happening again, do so!!

And yes, a real, healthy relationship shouldn't start off like that.
 
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