Just before christmas my child had swallowed plastic suction cap like the ones you have for sun screen shades in cars. It was a very scary situation as my son had turned blue and went all floppy. The doctors said we were very lucky to have him back as he was not breathing for 10/15 Min's. I wont go in to full details but it was the worst day of my whole life. The question i want to put forward to you is that, since that day i feel guilty going to work. I cant stop thinking of what had happened and what could have been, if luck was not on our-side that day then i don't know what i would have done. I have been thinking about leaving work because of what has happened but i am scared in case i make a wrong decision. I love my children but at the same time am scared in case our money situation gets bad. I have already taken some time off work to spend time with my children to get my head around this but am still upset and tearful about what has happened. What should i do?