Hi I'm Megan, I'm 17 years old and I'm in high school (jr year). I am 5'4 and I weigh 122.6 pounds. Just a few days ago somethig snapped inside of me. I'm tired of being fat, I want to look like the girls at Victoria secret and I want to feel thin. I have become obsessed with "thinspo" videos and quotes. I have restricted myself incredibly these past few days. Yesterday I had 260 calories and today I have only had 155. I can't stop myself. I also have purged some things that I have eaten. I can't stop, I feel like I have control. This is actually going to work. I will get there, to my 100 pound goal. I need it so bad. I threw up today and yesterday, it's disgusting and I've got a fear of throwing up. But I did it anyway, please help me. I want to be skinny so bad, and I know I need to eat. I just want to feel beautiful. Don't judge me either, it's the last thing I need. Thanks.
hi Megan, i've been there, done that. i don't know what to say to get you to listen to me, because i know how strong that hold can feel. i will say that it was the biggest regret of my life, eating next to nothing and losing weight so fast. i'm not going to go through the emotional and physical negative aspects of the "dieting", because you probably don't care and you probably already know them.
i will say that what you will lose is water weight and muscle. you WILL drop weight, and fast. but what happens (it's inevitable) is that you get really hungry, moody and you start to binge eat. it will start out one day a week, until it turns to everyday. by this point your metabolism will be slow, you will have no muscle and you will be depressed. you will gain weight like nothing else.
well this was my experience anyway. it took so long before my hair could start growing properly (you lose hair when you restict), and it took me a long time to re-establish a social group (i lost many friends). the only thing i am sure of is that you will regret it. you don't realise it but you are looking at this problem like you're in a bubble and disconnected from the entire world. no one thinks "really thin" is attractive, unless they too are in this bubble. only the vain, self conscious and vulnerable are there. the rest of the world is happy, free, beautiful and have the energy to take control in their lives.
i will say that what you will lose is water weight and muscle. you WILL drop weight, and fast. but what happens (it's inevitable) is that you get really hungry, moody and you start to binge eat. it will start out one day a week, until it turns to everyday. by this point your metabolism will be slow, you will have no muscle and you will be depressed. you will gain weight like nothing else.
well this was my experience anyway. it took so long before my hair could start growing properly (you lose hair when you restict), and it took me a long time to re-establish a social group (i lost many friends). the only thing i am sure of is that you will regret it. you don't realise it but you are looking at this problem like you're in a bubble and disconnected from the entire world. no one thinks "really thin" is attractive, unless they too are in this bubble. only the vain, self conscious and vulnerable are there. the rest of the world is happy, free, beautiful and have the energy to take control in their lives.
trust me sweetie, being fat is not being ugly. you are starving yourself but that is deffinitely the wrong way to go. if you starve yourself, your body adjusts to it, and burns off your calories slower to protect you and make you last longer. if you start eating healthy and normal then your body would already of gotten used to eating so little and so you will ut on tice as much weight. seen as you have only been doing it a few days, if you stop now it'll be fine, but dont carry it on longer. its something that i did too and regrett. making yourself throw up is something that alot of people suffer from as a disorder, but it is extremely unhealthy. i understand that you want to be thin and feel beautiful, ive been down that road. but you must watch your health. making yourself sick is also very bad for your teeth. you shouldnt try to eat less and less, because its more about WHAT you eat. replace fatty meals with a healthy salad. some supermarkets have pick and mix things, where you can take a container and fill it with what you like. its healthy and interesting. stop drinking fizzy drinks because it causes bloating. replace the cakes with nuts, and the crisps with nutrious bars. do not skip breakfast because it will make you hungrier throughout the day. go for a jog in the morning and a jog after dinner, because it is exercise that pays attention to all areas of your body. goodluck, and stay true to yourself 
you ARE beautiful x
you ARE beautiful x