I want to run away so badly. It is horrible here!?

MreMister

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I just graduated high school, and do not have a very promising outlook. I did good in school, but not good enough to get a scholarship. I have no one to help me w/ my FAFSA.(I can't get my mom's info...she lost it). I have to use my paycheck at a part time place to pay our bills and eat. We fucking starve at the end of the month when the Food Stamps run out. We live in the ghetto, and if it's not a fucking shooting, someones getting robbed or fucked. I am so tired of it, but I have nowhere to go!
I want to get out of the state, and get a job there, and STAY there. I don't care of I go thru college or not then. I just want out of this crap so badly. I do not belong here at all, and its sad because whenever I try to tell people about God, or try to help someone, I simply get shunned and laughed at. Not to say that doesn't happen elsewhere, its just that w/o that faith, I would have committed suicide a LONG time ago. They shun my one hope for no reason.
I don't have any money to spend on myself or save up, I have to support my mom and me, and she is just so paranoid all the time. It is driving me insane. She worries about the slightest of things, and if you lived with someone like that, despite who they were, you'd want to get away too. I am currently studying Java Programming and plan to get Sun Certified late this year or early next year. I just cannot concentrate here anymore. And now that I'm out of school, I have absolutely nothing to do anymore. Life is boring, hard and seemingly pointless. I'm not trying to be emo or no gay shit like that, but I'm just saying. Is there ANYTHING I can do?!
I do not want to join the Navy/Marines/Amy or anything like that. I have a friend whos going in, and I do have mad respect for them all, though. So, any cheap apartments OUT of Ohio?
 
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