Im 18 yr old female in my first year of university, and i have failed 3 classes. THREE. since i have been here its been really hard, and i have considered ending my life on many occasions. I keep going back and forth with believing in god, and its just an emotional roller coaster. i dont want to talk to any one here at uni, because then they will think im crazy, and if i go to the counselors they will put some thing in my perm record. i just need, someone whos been depressed before, or just someone. im pretty close to the edge. but something keeps holding. me back.. someone please talk to me !!!!!