Right now, I feel as if my life is playing game with me, as if it's trying to tell me that i can have anything in the world except for the things that I wholeheartedly desire the most and people that I truly love. I've given up on my life for a long time, and have stopped dreaming for a better life because I know things that I ever wish for won't ever go that way. Isn't life a big fucking joke? If there was really a creator of all these existence, I'd say that he/she deserves a comedy award for all these things.