advice for god's sake? please bear my foolishness..this girl dumped me out of the blue 4 months ago ....she said she doesnt feel the same thing for me anymore and it happened gradually....since then she has disappeared from my life and we havent spoken or seen each other....only i know what all things i did to make it work and even travelled 1000 miles to ask the reason because i am not getting how a person can say this after 3 years of being together...she had nothing to say and has treated me i can never imagine of her turning up like this....she has changed as a person and possibly has moved on...i am devastated since the breakup....i tried moving on but those memories are sucking major part of my day's hours...i am feeling terribly difficult to move on in life...even if i keep busy, i feel its temperory and eventually i end up feeling terribly lonely...she was my first love and the only girl i used to talk to ....she was my major emotional support and was a responsible and a very loving and understanding girl..i dont believe i am still pining over the loss and crying after 4 months ...i cant imagine the thought of her getting over me and growing apart....this scares me from inside....i am scared she she will learn to live without me(which she probably has i guess) and she hasnt bothered to check if i am still alive ....i mean how can she not miss me and those moments?? its just not possible when she was 100 times more caring and sensitive and possessive than me and made me feel like a king....she wouldnt bear any misunderstanding and would do anything to see me happy in the relationship....what should i say more when there are a thousand things to tell she was so perfect...i dont have any friends...i have read all stuff like learn from it move on, it happens and all that...i dont have any one to vent it out ...i just suppress it inside and cry over her when she must be having fun with her friends in malls and theatres...should i call her and check how she is doin ? one part of me still wonders if she misses me and maybe things will work out if i call ...but the other part knows the brutal truth i guess...but who knows even if she miss me and whether this is the way she is coping up by not talking or she has just turned cold...but i am badly missing her and feeling an urge to contact her...i cant forget her memories and beautiful times and i realise i am being needy and this sucks...i am helpless and cant help getting into this state... please advice ...regards and thanks for reading