Hi Kitten,
Let's see what you've got...
Dream says there is something that you know ("just know something") or feel instinctually. Says that you may be straying or getting out of touch with your family life ("far away from home"). Dream indicates that you fear the changes that will occur as a result ("that I was going to die"). You are reiterating ("I kept saying") how you want to be around for a celebratory situation ("December 10th, or day after"). You are also reminding yourself of something ("in my head I said to myself") of what you feel obligated to do ("I had to"). Perhaps too, staying in contact or letting mom know where you're going ("say goodbye to mom").
Your sister,
Ginger,
((Dream Interpreter for over 20 years))