mAnimalLuvrm1
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It all started going bad last November 08 when I was temporarily laid off from my job and then still laid off, things are not looking good. I have done temp work here and there but nothing that pays the bills. I am on my last 13 weeks of UIA unless congress extends unemployment.
Then by June I had cancer, which took until November 09 to seemingly get rid of, thank god. I was lucky to get medicaid which covered my med expenses for cancer. During that time, I forced myself to job search even though I was sick as a dog, didn't even get 1 response to my resume. I also took 2 college classes which ended up being too much and I dropped them by the last week of cancer treatment...chemo and radiation.
Its been a few months since cancer treatment so I got extra aggressive with my job search, doctored up my resume a bit and actually had a few call backs. One job was looking especially promising but the manager said he would decide probably today but possibly monday and let me know, he said he had 2 other highly qualified applicants with more technical computer skills but he thinks I fit in better with the staff, but less computer skills. I have good computer skills, so I am not an expert....what kind of skills does he want an administrative assistant to have...an IT engineer? Anyways, that was depressing to me that I haven't heard back from him today.
Then I get this letter from fafsa telling me that I've maxed out my student loans, the money I was supposed to be refunded for last semester due to illness couldn't be credited unless I paid the 2k back that I accepted for living expenses.
Here I am now with no job, chipping away a few hundred a month at the remainder of my spring and summer loan money, no way to further my education, 10 classes which will cost me 8k to finish for my bachelors, and now I might still have cancer too and need surgery...oh and my unemployment will be gone in 3 months.
And maybe the most stressful part now is that finally after 4 years, my bf and I are moving into the next step of our relationship, talking marriage and getting a house. Just as we start talking about it, I feel the need to tell him just what hes getting into...such as the 7k in CC Debt I've acquired in the past year since being laid off. Now tonight I call him crying because I can't get student loans, what will I do? And on top of it I'm waiting for a scan in a few weeks that tells me if I have cancer. Its just more than I can take. I am really losing it. Advice anyone? The person who supported me through my cancer and everything also did so in a way that was like "tough love" I guess you could say. He can be harsh at times, like getting mad when I couldn't eat, force feeding me, trying to keep me strong. I know he was concerned for me and this is why he was so aggressive about forcing me to eat, amongst other things. But sometimes like now with this student loan issue, CC debt, at what point is someone just going to give up on me and say I am going nowhere? Because for the first time in my life I feel like I'm going nowhere and no way out of this disaster.
I am losing it,please if anyone has any words of encouragement or way to help...I can't take it anymore.
Then by June I had cancer, which took until November 09 to seemingly get rid of, thank god. I was lucky to get medicaid which covered my med expenses for cancer. During that time, I forced myself to job search even though I was sick as a dog, didn't even get 1 response to my resume. I also took 2 college classes which ended up being too much and I dropped them by the last week of cancer treatment...chemo and radiation.
Its been a few months since cancer treatment so I got extra aggressive with my job search, doctored up my resume a bit and actually had a few call backs. One job was looking especially promising but the manager said he would decide probably today but possibly monday and let me know, he said he had 2 other highly qualified applicants with more technical computer skills but he thinks I fit in better with the staff, but less computer skills. I have good computer skills, so I am not an expert....what kind of skills does he want an administrative assistant to have...an IT engineer? Anyways, that was depressing to me that I haven't heard back from him today.
Then I get this letter from fafsa telling me that I've maxed out my student loans, the money I was supposed to be refunded for last semester due to illness couldn't be credited unless I paid the 2k back that I accepted for living expenses.
Here I am now with no job, chipping away a few hundred a month at the remainder of my spring and summer loan money, no way to further my education, 10 classes which will cost me 8k to finish for my bachelors, and now I might still have cancer too and need surgery...oh and my unemployment will be gone in 3 months.
And maybe the most stressful part now is that finally after 4 years, my bf and I are moving into the next step of our relationship, talking marriage and getting a house. Just as we start talking about it, I feel the need to tell him just what hes getting into...such as the 7k in CC Debt I've acquired in the past year since being laid off. Now tonight I call him crying because I can't get student loans, what will I do? And on top of it I'm waiting for a scan in a few weeks that tells me if I have cancer. Its just more than I can take. I am really losing it. Advice anyone? The person who supported me through my cancer and everything also did so in a way that was like "tough love" I guess you could say. He can be harsh at times, like getting mad when I couldn't eat, force feeding me, trying to keep me strong. I know he was concerned for me and this is why he was so aggressive about forcing me to eat, amongst other things. But sometimes like now with this student loan issue, CC debt, at what point is someone just going to give up on me and say I am going nowhere? Because for the first time in my life I feel like I'm going nowhere and no way out of this disaster.
I am losing it,please if anyone has any words of encouragement or way to help...I can't take it anymore.