my older brother just died this monday. he was the greatest person. at the age of 6 he took care of me and my four younger siblings because our father left and our mom had an emotional break down and had drinking problems. he was our parents and the one who raised and took care of us.
our dad came back 12 years later this year. he got full custody of me and my younger siblings. my older brother stayed with my mom to help her with her problems. i became the older brother and my siblings and i keep having fights about me over reacting to everything. we always turned to my older brother for help even thought we lie in two different state.
this past weekend he came to visit since his school had a three day weekend. on monday he was going to go back home but before he did we got into a fight. he told me that i should forgive our parents because they were trying to make up for everything they put us through. i told him no because they basically abounding us and that i hated him just as much because i felt as if him staying with our mom was like him abounding us. he went back home and got into a car accident. he died after his heart finally gave out.
my sister emma has been normal and it's freaking me out. my brother kevin has always been quiet but he is just too quiet now. susan is just pretending as if everything is okay. lucy cries herself to sleep every night, holding our brothers jacket. my mom is trying and i'm just waiting for her to break and starting drinking again (i know it's wrong to think that but i can't help but be negative). my dad and step-mom is trying to hard. my half siblings are grieving but they barely know my brother. i don't know if we are going to make it. we are hurting to much. the person that held us all together just died and we still have so much more problem to deal with. how do we keep things together?
our dad came back 12 years later this year. he got full custody of me and my younger siblings. my older brother stayed with my mom to help her with her problems. i became the older brother and my siblings and i keep having fights about me over reacting to everything. we always turned to my older brother for help even thought we lie in two different state.
this past weekend he came to visit since his school had a three day weekend. on monday he was going to go back home but before he did we got into a fight. he told me that i should forgive our parents because they were trying to make up for everything they put us through. i told him no because they basically abounding us and that i hated him just as much because i felt as if him staying with our mom was like him abounding us. he went back home and got into a car accident. he died after his heart finally gave out.
my sister emma has been normal and it's freaking me out. my brother kevin has always been quiet but he is just too quiet now. susan is just pretending as if everything is okay. lucy cries herself to sleep every night, holding our brothers jacket. my mom is trying and i'm just waiting for her to break and starting drinking again (i know it's wrong to think that but i can't help but be negative). my dad and step-mom is trying to hard. my half siblings are grieving but they barely know my brother. i don't know if we are going to make it. we are hurting to much. the person that held us all together just died and we still have so much more problem to deal with. how do we keep things together?