My siblings hate me. My mom lives with me?

[mHisBabygirlm]

for 13 years now. She was brutally abused by our father. I was a brat because i was close to my dad (siblings called me Brat amongst a lot of other names that hurt so bad. ) growing up I didn't know better. I was still nice to all of them. I was the youngest and I would fear her being abused every night. It's been 13 years since she's been here. I'm 37 the oldest is 50. Nobody talks to me. I'm never invited to there gatherings. I have seen them only at my house. I would practically beg them to come over our house for party's or bb qs. They hated my dad growing up. Now they are so sorry for him and cater to him. I miss them so much. I know they don't want me in their life but I'm so lonely. What's wrong with me???? They heard my daughter was gravely ill and still they don't call. I have called and had them even after my daughters illness because I miss them so much. I care about them. I can't be mad at them. Although I'm hurt that they don't care for my family. I act like it doesn't bug me when my mom is invited by them. I cry all the time. I even dream about them acting mean to me. I call the dreams when they are nice to me nightmeres because it never has happen in real life. Help! I want to move on. How do I do this?