everyday i always think of the bad things in my life and how i want things to be different. i've been crying more lately, i 've cried every night except 1 this week. whenever my sister is talking on th phone w/ her bf i have to leave the room b/c im so jealous! im happy for her, really. but no guy has ever even asked me out and it kinda bums me out seeing all my friends and sister date. then when my bff talks about the fun she had over the weekend w/ other friends (who i used to hang out w/ too) i get so sad! my dad told me i couldnt be friends w/ her anymore so not only do i not see her and her family, but i dont see the other friends n-e more.
my dad is so annoying! if i get a b, i get lectured and he says my expectations are too low. he always judges my friends (like he never liked my bff b/c he thought she was kinda ugly. so he thought sh was a lesbian) he doesnt trust me at all, though he wont admit it. and he gets mad over th smallest things!
he also says some horrible things. like he said i was really skinny then a minute later when we were talkin about models or something, he said super skinny is ugly. which basically sounded like he was calling me ugly. there r other stuff but i wont tell now...
my sister says i can tell her anything but i just cant talk to her about this! it's so weird! what can i do?! i feel horrible all the time. sometimes i just want to break down and talk to whoever im w/ at the time! help!
and my dad isnt th one to talk to about things. he is very closed-minded. and he's the main reason for me feeling this way
my dad is so annoying! if i get a b, i get lectured and he says my expectations are too low. he always judges my friends (like he never liked my bff b/c he thought she was kinda ugly. so he thought sh was a lesbian) he doesnt trust me at all, though he wont admit it. and he gets mad over th smallest things!
he also says some horrible things. like he said i was really skinny then a minute later when we were talkin about models or something, he said super skinny is ugly. which basically sounded like he was calling me ugly. there r other stuff but i wont tell now...
my sister says i can tell her anything but i just cant talk to her about this! it's so weird! what can i do?! i feel horrible all the time. sometimes i just want to break down and talk to whoever im w/ at the time! help!
and my dad isnt th one to talk to about things. he is very closed-minded. and he's the main reason for me feeling this way