well good, thank you for your service... perhaps not enough people tell you that.
My point in asking was because of the avatar, but also the point that you were one who chose to fight for the weak, those would couldn't fight for themselves, or something else along those lines.. or at least you hoped that it was for a good/the right cause. This is how I feel about a child that would one day grow up to be a real human being, but now gets no choice on what happens to it.