Depressed after trip..........?

[Darkwatch]

After a song I listen to on the best trip of my life i get all depressed for the rest of the day...
I try and try to think about it in a happy way, or as a great experience, but my heart feels really gross and bad inside. I am eating way more then usual too. The trip was with my friend btw, and I have like the perfect home life, not the best school life though, but that shouldn't matter right? Another thing too, on the trip I was like pleading for attention and always staring at the step dad, I know for a fact I'm not gay. Right now I just don't know what to do...I have loss of interest in everything, I feel sick, and like I said my heart fells horrible...again I'm not gay and no shrinks...I'm only 15.
And yes I know I am VERY mixed up in the head... Oh I just remembered one last thing, before the trip I never "thought" now I have a million things going through my head at a mile a minute, most of it bad things about others...and I've turned quite, i hate it.This started right after the trip and now it's 2 months later... HELP ME!!!. Thanks.

 

[gldjns]

I think you're just going through teenage angst, that time in your life when hormones take over your life. You're growing into manhood, and things seems really mixed up right now. Is there someone you can talk to, like your parents or some other adult who is non-judgmental? What about your friends, and activities you enjoy? Maybe you're just dwelling too much on the feelings you're having right now, and need some diversion. Maybe you just need someone to hang out with. I think you'll find most of your friends are going through the same emotional stress. The trouble is, none of them want to admit it. It's nothing to be ashamed of, and it won't last forever. But I really think you need someone to talk to. Good luck!