DebilitatedSoul
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My girlfriend admitted that she slept with another man while I was in Iraq. I guess I can understand on some level that she didn't really want me to go there in the first place. I don't doubt that this girl loves me I know that she does but i cannot help feeling hurt that this happened. Is it my fault for not listening to her and going? Another thing that is worrying me is that while I was there I saw some of the PMC guys. When I was in the field we ran across some of them and I talked to one of them who said that everybody back in the states just assumed that Blackwater was a bunch of self absorbed mercenaries that had no problem killing civies... During that conversation my squad came under some pretty intense RPG and small arms fire, that guy from blackwater was a designated marksman and saved my life along with three other Marines so to everyone who says that Blackwater is a load of crap I would like to tell you that the most of them are EX army/marine and they are incredibly awesome guys... The people who keep bashing them and us troops really need to mature a little, it isn't our fault that we are doing what we do.. every day for a month I played ball with an Iraqi kid whos parents were killed by a Sunni Extremist suicide bomber... that kid was almost like a son to me and neither me nor anyone I know killed a civilian with the exeption of one guy who shot a woman because the was holding a pistol towards me and my squad (we didn't know what was going on, her husband had just been killed by an insurgent and we heard the gunfire and thought it was her and my squad mate asked her three times in her language (im not an interpreter) to drop the weapon and she didnt but instead fired two shots at us, one hitting the soldier who shot her in the leg. I've killed 12 men, they were out to kill me but they died first, how can I live with that I know that if I didn'[t do what I did my buddies would have died but I still feel horrible. So i guess my question is what should I do about my girl, what is your opinion on blackwater, and how do I deal with taking a life?