more of a rant than a question anxiety related?

[chic_who_take_noshit]

Okay so i have now come to the conclusion that nothing and i mean absolutely NOTHING works for anxiety, CBT, positive thinking, medication and stupid therapists etc. none of it works for me anyway, im sitting here and im not worrying about anything things in my life and with my family couldn't be better atm, so why is my heart pounding and i cant breathe properly, im probably gonna really regret saying all this because tbh i sound like an idiot lol, i just want to get it off my chest i feel like going outside and screaming as loud as i can "I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN" but i cant id probably be arrested and people are sleeping and i dont want to annoy sleeping peeps their lucky they can sleep i havent slept right in like 2 weeks getting about 2 hrs in the early mornings usually around 5-7am then im up again with my kids.I'm just exhausted mentally, everyday i think im dying seriously i always have some weird symptoms tinglyness headaches dizzyness and the rest i could go on all day but apparently im healthy says my doctor who wont bother to do anymore tests which i cant really blame him because at this stage ive probably given him some stress related illness ok i think im done now ill be surprised if anyone reads this even half way through without thinking im a mentalcase anyway much love everyone xxxx
meds ive been on: Xanax, Lexapro, Diazepam, Librium, Stemitil and effexor and none of them worked and yes i gave them months at a time im currently on no meds now i weaned myself off effexor because i dont want to be on meds

 

[Turquoisesista]

In my experience, the more you look for a way to stop the anxiety the more anxiety it seems to create and the more stress builds up and the more your brain responds by releasing stress hormones that get you ready for fight or flight.
All those uncomfortable anxiety feelings you describe are those hormones preparing you against a perceived threat as real to it as if a dog were chasing you and you needed to respond quickly to survive an attack! Its a strain on the body to have those hormones pumping through your system heaps and hence the headaches and dizzyness. Things like the rapid heart beat, loss of sleep etc is your bodys way of saying ''i perceive a threat, I'm going to fight this or I am getting ready to flee"'..you wouldnt sleep if a dog were chasing you, you wouldnt feel calm, you wouldnt want to eat...you would just be in pure reaction and everything else shuts down.
We are living in a very very full on stimulus world these days, noise, tv, radio waves, mobile phones, cars everywhere, relationship strains, busy lives, less time for our selves and family...some people are more affected than others.
Once you start having fight/flight symptoms to these modern day stresses, I agree that it can be very hard to break the habit the body gets into of responding inappropriately to normal modern life. The quest to find a cure for it or the anxiety of wondering whats wrong and if you''re mental just adds to the problem and can be very disheartening.
What I found has helped me is to learn about the body's natural fight or flight system. Google it, educate yourself. Learn to understand that your body isnt against you, its just trying to help but inappropriately.
When you get the symptoms learn to observe them not as something ''wrong" or mental but just natural and normal (but just overly sensitive and tweeked too tightly).
You may not be able to make your sensitivity go away.. I dont know? I have found the best approach is not trying to make the anxiety go away, as it is to build up my resilience. I have found my best tactics to be going for kinesiology and working on getting stronger and less sensitive, and also simply burning off the stress hormones. I prefer chinese medicine (herbs and acupuncture) for soothing my nervous system.
i would say to my body, ok you think we need to fight or flight now huh? game on!! and go for a run and do what my biology is urging me to do.. run that stuff off till you puff and sweat it out..much like how you would run to get away from that dog.
If you dont do something with all that hormones and stress it just hangs about in your body and stresses your adrenal glands and wears down your immune system.

 

[Tiger00]

Have you ever tried changing your diet? I mean it's true what they say "you are what you eat". You should avoid eating/drinking any caffeine/sugar and intake more vitamin B as it will help you feel more calm. You can even buy vitamin B supplements at your local drug store, they are over the counter so you can buy them anytime you wish. Herbal tea can also make calm your nervous system; drink 2-3 cups daily and you should notice a difference over some time.

 

[Tanya]

What kind of medication have you had? I can guarantee that certain kinds of anxiety medications do work.

How much Xanax did you take? Because I know if I take 2mg, I'm nice and calm and feeling good. Maybe you didn't take the right dosage.

 

[Finley]

You can be generally happy with your life and still have anxiety or panic attacks.
Some things that I find helpful are, when I'm feeling anxious or feel a panic attack coming on, to remember to keep breathing. Slow, deep breathes, in through the nosed and out through the mouth. The in the nose and out out the mouth part is very important.
Also, just to remind yourself that you've felt this way before, you've been through it before, and you know that it will pass. You also know you can make it through, and it will end.
You don't sound like a mentalcase, you sound stressed.
I don't know what you have had, but I know Ativan (Lorazepam) has been known to have good results. Doctor prescribed.
Any type of mental stress or illness takes a while to learn to cope with and figure out what works best for you personally. Hang in there.