This was another first. I think it was related to the anxiety I had last night at the gym when I went over (no pun intended) jumping/diving rolls and still felt some head/shoulder impact, and was close to acknowledging I probably won't be training any longer.
There is a lot I like about the training but I cannot accept that I may be asked/made to do this technique in class thereby humiliating myself in front of the class for no benefit.
There were three things that hurt the last time, one was that in my mind I felt I just about knew how to do it but my fear was blocking me so just did it (a bit like learning to swim or ride a bike holding back in itself will make it worse) but got it wrong, no one pointed out what mistake I made, I later analysed it and having watched several videos thought I had why I got it wrong. The second was the knee in the face, temporary hurt, but since we have so little impact (all of the bruises I have are from blocking) in class it caught me out. Third was a bit of pride, I felt the rest of the class got a laugh out of it. With friends like these who needs enemies!
Still. I don't like 'giving up' so feel like ****.