I get made fun of all the time at school because of a depersonalization disorder. No one knows I have it other than family, friends, and school staff. I get openly called names all the time. I was an honor roll student and a varsity track and cross country runner. I feel like a failure now.
My parents won't let me stay home. I hate school so much I have tried breaking my arm in the bathroom stall door yesterday. I have never had a tardy before, but couldn't bear going to school Monday and continuing to get made fun of. I am serving detention for it. I didn't go again today. My parents won't call me out.
My therapist has tried tons of things with me. Meds, friends, support groups, counseling, testing. I am not getting better. It has gotten worse.
I am going to kill myself if I don't stop suffering. I have a knife, here. I am afraid, of course. I am not going to stop myself, though. I will get rid of the life I have because I cannot get the old one back. It is a recurrent thought. There is no more preventing me from stopping myself.
My parents won't let me stay home. I hate school so much I have tried breaking my arm in the bathroom stall door yesterday. I have never had a tardy before, but couldn't bear going to school Monday and continuing to get made fun of. I am serving detention for it. I didn't go again today. My parents won't call me out.
My therapist has tried tons of things with me. Meds, friends, support groups, counseling, testing. I am not getting better. It has gotten worse.
I am going to kill myself if I don't stop suffering. I have a knife, here. I am afraid, of course. I am not going to stop myself, though. I will get rid of the life I have because I cannot get the old one back. It is a recurrent thought. There is no more preventing me from stopping myself.