All my life since i can remember at about 11 i have had periods of depression. Sometimes it comes on because of understandable reasons, like my parents splitting up, being in a bad car accident, moving house away from my mum, pets dying, boyfriend troubles, losing a job and other stuff.. sometimes im good at dealing with things but other times i cant cope and feel as though im constantly crying. Like now, im having a hard time as im with my boyfriend but am not attracted to him anymore after 6 months. It's making me so stressed i cant think straight and my ex who really hurt me wants me back which is making it 10x worse. When i get like this everything seems bad and like there is no way out and things will be like this forever. I've never been to the doctor or anything cause i thought it was just a teenage thing but i cant handle living my life feeling this way.