this was 1 week ago ...and ever since i have been feeling really sad , depressed , and mostly afraid..
i am not a bad person ..i just turned 18 and i look foward to getting a good education and taking care of my parents....the reason why i feel so afraid and sad is because i love horror movies,videogames and many more things that a normal teen or adult likes ..BUT at the same time i feel bad because i feel that i need to be praying 24/7 and feel that i cant have a normal life....That i cant watch tv or listen to music or watch my horror movies or play NOTHING ...i have been baptised and plan to start attending church ..but.. I am not happy because i feel i need to question everything instead of just enjoying it..i woud like for someone who has been in my position to let me know how to handle this situation..because i feel i cant enjoy the things i have ..even if they just are material things....i come from a poor family so i get really happy when i get something i wanted but i still feel confused and afraid....
i am not a bad person ..i just turned 18 and i look foward to getting a good education and taking care of my parents....the reason why i feel so afraid and sad is because i love horror movies,videogames and many more things that a normal teen or adult likes ..BUT at the same time i feel bad because i feel that i need to be praying 24/7 and feel that i cant have a normal life....That i cant watch tv or listen to music or watch my horror movies or play NOTHING ...i have been baptised and plan to start attending church ..but.. I am not happy because i feel i need to question everything instead of just enjoying it..i woud like for someone who has been in my position to let me know how to handle this situation..because i feel i cant enjoy the things i have ..even if they just are material things....i come from a poor family so i get really happy when i get something i wanted but i still feel confused and afraid....