...a girl for 1 1/2 years and...? ...she considers me her best friend. The whole time I have been torn between feelings us being best friends and me wanting more than that with her. Recently she met a guy she said she had feelings for and I got jealous. She asked me why I was jealous and I told her that I saw her as more than a friend, almost like a girlfriend and she thought it was cute. She said she'd considered me in that way before but said she wants to just be friends, which is what I want to. I don't want to lose her as a friend. The problem is, since we spoke about all this, I have felt different around her, like there is some awkwardness or tension. I'm finding it difficult to just relax and chat to her about things like we did before. Can anyone tell me if they think this is permanent or if you think it will fade over time. What can I do to make things as they were? I don't want to lose her friendship. Should we just carry on and wait for it to be forgotten about?