That sounds pretty impulsive to me. If you are thinking of harming yourself you need to call 911 and get help. There is no reason to kill yourself over material things, they can be replaced, you can't. Sounds like your mom is really hard on punishing you for doing bad in school. That really must suck. What does your dad have to say about this? Are you getting extra help through school? Modified school program? I assume you are on meds, what do you know about ADHD? Has your family members been educated about the lack of focus with ADHD? Have you learned any good coping skills for the hyper activity? Sounds like you need more support, I would suggest a counsellor, either at school or through a program. You are not alone. I too have ADHD. You need to educate yourself and maybe even see your family doctor, because if you still can't focus, maybe the meds are wrong... I know Concerta works the best for me.